This is for the ANYONE who is struggling with secret sins.
Have you ever sat yourself down and had an honest conversation with yourself, or taken the time to have a good long stare in the mirror? The facade becomes a heavy mask after carrying it around for so long. The words become less and less convincing because you know the truth. You can barely tell difference between the lies and you live in fear that your secret life won’t be a secret anymore.
Its easy to get into the mechanics of things, to appear to be something and still not be it. We justify the sins and the feelings of shame that come with them, God surely understands I’m work in progress. I caught myself judging the sin of another when I was secretly struggling with it myself. But I realised that like fungus sin festers in the dark, thriving on the fact that you neither have the power of overcome it nor the courage to confess it. Coiling up and constricting us, our secrets sins slowly and silently kill us.
It doesn’t matter what your sin maybe fornication, adultery, pornography, drinking, masturbation, drug abuse, stealing, murder, fraud etc if not exposed to the Light your sin will kill you. There is a story of a young boy who goes fishing by the riverside. On his way there he goes deep into the forest near his home to find some worms. In between some rocks oddly enough he finds some thick juicy worms. He fills his little bucket with as many as he can and then off he goes to the river.
Whilst preparing the fishing rod he digs into the bucket for a worm and hooks it on. But he feels a slight sting on his finger whilst doing so. The sensation lasts for a moment and the boy throws the line into the river. To his amazement within moments a very big fish is hooked on the line. Excited by his success he hooks up more worms on the line and catches even more big fish. But each time he put his hand in the bucket to take the worms he felt the stinging sensation. For a while the sensation lasts a little longer each time, until he just can’t feel it anymore. He is numb to the pain. So excited about his catch he puts his fish in his bucket and starts his triumphant trek home.
On his way, his uncle happens to drive past and stops to see if he wants a ride home. But when the boy is in the car his uncle sees his swollen hand and rushes him to the hospital. By the time they arrive the boy is dead.
The little worms that the boy used to catch his fantastic catch were actually tiny snakes, and each sting he felt was a snake bite. See friend a single snake bite from these tiny snakes probably wouldn’t have killed the boy but the accumulation on venom in his system from the repeated act proved fatal and killed him.
You and I are not condemed (written off for punishment) but we have been convicted (found guilty). I am not here to tell you that these 10 steps will help you get over your addiction, or that its going to be easy. But the first step is to expose our sins to the Light. Jesus said I am the WAY the TRUTH and LIFE. Be honest with yourself and with others. Its time to come clean.